i have once again slipped into her dark embrace.
youtube has been advertising its shitty ‘playables’ feature and i keep telling it to fuck off. but then i remembered that they had Adorable Home, and i played that shit a lot a long time ago. so i tried it on youtube for like 3 minutes and got bored cuz i was at level one. lame.
but before i clicked on it, i saw the thumbnail of something i had buried in my mind. not deeply, but still buried. my heart stopped. i knew i couldn’t resist at least looking at what it was like on youtube. but it felt like relapsing. it felt like this was an awful mistake, that i should forget it was there and move on.
i didn’t.
i clicked on it, and was met with a loading screen i knew and loathed. then, the face of the game, annoying blonde woman. her uncanny facial movements triggering minute discomfort within me. but i pressed on.
but i couldn’t get past the tutorial.
it was the same issue i had with Adorable Home; i was starting from zero. what if i couldn’t get the ad based rewards? how would that even work with my adblock, anyway? i know how it works on CrazyGames, why risk a different platform? and my mind drifted back to my progress on that purple website. even if i didn’t play the game again, what was the harm in just seeing how far i had progessed?
unfortunately/fortunately, i was signed out. this was a big problem. i had signed up with a temp email and a username i couldn’t remember, much less the password. maybe i actually used a google account…? no. i stared at the website and mourned the game i had worked so hard in, all lost to the internet’s uncaring waves. this was it. i couldn’t get it back.
i lived one whole day before being blasted with a memory. me, signing up for this stupid website, a stickypad on the other monitor.
fuck.
locating the stickypad that held my credentials in all their ‘glory’ i felt dread wash over me. i was really going to sign in, huh? was my existence going to be drowned in this uncanny-valley faced, tropical-themed, microtansaction pushing, SHITTY fucking mobile app? seriously?
it had been 192 days since i had last signed in. 192 days not plauged by the merging of tropical fruits. which, oh my god, has just reminded me of something. but i will NOT be distracted right now.